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It’s been about a week and a half since I last blogged. (sorta like, it’s been about a week and a half since my last confession! haha..) Many events have happened since then.. Raja Haji hols were nice.. I had the place all to myself.. bachelor pad laa konon.. heh.. Went to an old friends’ wedding over the weekend.. that must have been the FIRST ever wedding that I’ve been to whereby I noticed that the bride was unhappy to be married. Well, I may be wrong, but I doubt it. Come on.. facial expression won’t give out a frown when you’re ecstatic, right? Furthermore, a normal happy person would be happy to see you (esp if you haven’t seen the person for yearssss on end!)

Then there was Christmas Eve and the snatch-thief event that followed the great dinner. Assholes. Spoiled a really great night out.. tak ke menyusahkan orang kena buat balik IC, Driver’s license, cancel credit cards / ATM cards, keys etc… that’s just one part.. you can kiss whatever else that’s in the handbag goodbye, including other sentiments and my car-house keys. No, I wasn’t mugged but my friend was. Dah la kena mugged.. luka lak tu.. kesian kan.. I’m still pretty pissed with the whole incident and I also feel bad for what my friend had to endure.. She’s still pretty traumatized by the incident.. well, I may not say it out loud or show it but I’m traumatized as well. It kinda strengthens the fact why I don’t carry a handbag in the first place.. well, that, among other reasons of course.

What else? Well.. today’s the end of 2007. The last day of this year. This year has had its ups and downs but I’ve had an okay year I suppose.. maybe the fact that I’m happy now kinda makes me feel like I’ve had a good year… or rather a good ending to the year. I know for a fact that I will have a good start to the year as well.. because I have you. I could not be more thankful to the person who introduced me to the love of my life.. but know that I am ever most grateful.

What’s planned for tonight? Well, since Nong & Jimmy’s is closed.. the gang and I are having a BBQ at my place tonight.. so, my beloved childhood buddies.. make sure you guys come on over k.

Goodbye 2007, Welcome 2008.

Without realising it, it’s been exactly a month since I posted up Baby Love into my blog.. the thing is, i wanted to mention about the song again today.. and upon checking when i last write about it, it’s exactly a month. That song really does it for me.. It’s my feel good song. Just about everytime I hear the song played on the radio, i’d crank up the volume really loud and start singing to it, in the most happiest feeling. I feel like butterflies are flying around and I can’t stop grinning from ear-to-ear.. I feel soooo…. happy. Maybe there’s a person involved as well.. well, maybe.

Today I was given a reality check. Even though the butterflies flying around are symptoms that I’m deeply in love but the reality of it all is that I can’t be.. or rather, I shouldn’t be. How I wish that things are different.. That things can be the way I want em to be.. If only, baby. If only…

I’ll cross that bridge when I get there.. for some reason, I can see that the end may be near.. but I’m trying to take the longer route to this bridge. When you’re with someone as amazing, you don’t want your world to crumble and end.. you just wanna crumble in their arms and live a happy ending together instead.

I dont wanna live without your love
I dont wanna face the night alone
I could never make it through my life
If I had to make it on my own
I dont wanna love nobody else
I dont wanna find somebody new
I dont wanna live without your love
I just wanna live my life with you

Someone asked me yesterday, what do I need to make me happy? To keep happy on a daily basis. No one has ever really asked me that question before.. I just assume people would know that it doesn’t take a lot to make me happy.

I’m an Aquarian.. and if you’re into horoscopes, astrology and signs, you would know that Aquarians are ultra-sensitive people. For me, kalau jaga hati i pun dah cukup. I don’t need people to shower me with gifts or surprises.. I’m the type of person who lives for the little things in "love life".. like endearments, cards, jiwang text messages, lovey-dovey emails / notes.. or just spending time making out and/or doing nothing together.. err yeah, i do. I love hearing the voice of the person I love, first thing I open my eyes in the morning and the last thing at night before I fall asleep. I’m a sucker for love songs and romance. I’m a true hopeless romantic at heart. I’m crazee cos I like to go the distance for someone I love. Sometimes, i think it would be nice if i had someone who would go the distance for me.. you know, to feel wanted and needed.. and well, since I don’t have such a person in my life, I make it a point to be that person.

What if that person dah rasa dia dah cukup jaga hati i? or they have already compromised more than they think they should for me? Well, we have different levels of satisfaction.. and satisfaction is an individual opinion. What works for you, may not work for me. That’s why compromising is vital in a relationship (or not-in-an-R).. again, communication is the only way to go. If you don’t talk about it, then you’ll just not know.. you can’t expect the person to have ESP (extrasensory perception / sixth sense), right? I love communicating cos i’m a very optimistic person. I believe that just about everything can be worked out if two people are willing to talk, listen to each other and compromise. I’m a lovesick puppy.. what I wouldn’t do for the person I love.

What makes me happy? Just like every other person, I want to feel appreciated and loved unconditionally. Sadly, i’m a little insecure when it comes to love, so sometimes, I need reassurance and reminders. When the person is really in love with me, they will know what to do. Like I said, it doesn’t take much to make me happy.. but the effort definitely earns you points.

Momentarily or for all eternity, I feel lucky to have fallen for you.

I feel really emotional tonight.

After my horrid birthday celebration this year, I remember telling a friend of mine that next year, I hope to celebrate the eve of my 28th birthday with someone special. Someone who I love entirely and loves me back the same.

Tonight I realize that it’s exactly two months to go til I turn 28.. and somehow, I just don’t see it happening-lah.

As it is, I don’t mean anything to anyone.. frankly, not one person has ever told me that I am special to them and that they are lucky to have me.. so it looks like I’m gonna be alone again next birthday.

What else is new.

25 Days to Christmas…

and all I want is you..

31 Days to the New Year..

and all I want is you..

63 Days to my 28th Birthday..

and all I want is you..

76 Days to Valentine’s Day..

and all I want is you..

193 Days to your Birthday..

and all I want is you..

i just want you for my own..

more than you could ever know..

make my wish come true..

oh baby all I want for Christmas is you..

…you.. baby.

all I want for Christmas is you.. baby..

all I want for Christmas is you.. baby..

all I want for Christmas is you.. baby..

all I want for Christmas is you.. baby..